Some folks wonder where they will go when they die. Some believe they will simply be no more...they will rot and become part of the earth again. Indeed, science shows us that this is true of the body. But religion causes folks to wonder...is there more? Some folks struggle with that question. They settle things in their minds based on variables in their upbringing, or what they have or have not experienced. Some struggle with salvation--and they come from evangelical backgrounds where Jesus is taught from the cradle to the grave. Some are teenagers; some are adults--who were saved as young children. What they believe as a child, is scrutinized in light of greater understanding as a teenager. Then as an adult, salvation is scrutinized again in light of greater understanding as an adult.
Can a person still be saved even though they do not understand all the particulars surrounding salvation?
I was seven-years-old when I walked down the aisle of Triangle Baptist Church in Triangle, Virginia. Pastor James Weaver asked me a few questions, but I have absolutely no recall as to what he said. Yet, I clearly remember telling him that I wanted Jesus in my life. I later told my stepmother, when she was getting me dressed to go to church for my baptism, that Jesus washed away my sin. I knew that I needed to obey God and do what the Bible said. I understood that with all the understanding a seven-year-old child could, I suppose.
However, I did not understand grace. I did not understand faith. I didn't understand justification, or sanctification, election, nor any of the other doctrines which many people argue and debate today. For that matter, I didn't really understand baptism. I did understand that without Jesus I was going to hell. I wanted Him in my life even though I wasn't sure how He became a part of my life. I didn't understand all the things that made that so, but I believed the Bible and the preacher when he preached those things. I believed that God had to do something inside me and that I needed Him to do it. I didn't understand exactly how He was going to do that, but I believed He would. I believed as I walked that aisle as a child that He would do in me what I needed in order to go to heaven.
I did not believe in the tooth fairy, Santa Claus, or the Easter Bunny. Those myths were debunked with reality: Teeth beneath the pillow the following morning. Letters to Santa that went unanswered. Decorating my own eggs the day before Easter. I still wished upon a star, and tossed coins in wishing wells. I still made wishes when I blew out my candles. But most childhood fantasies were just that--fantasy. I didn't even believe in happily-ever-after. So I can only surmise that my belief in Jesus was strengthened by solid facts. People in my life, school teachers, and Sunday School teachers trusted in God and the Bible that documented His words to us. After all, the Ten Commandments were posted on the wall of every classroom. It had to be true, didn't it? I saw my school teachers in church--it had to be trustworthy.
I spent nearly all summers in Tennessee with my step-mother's family--if not the entire summer, a large portion of it. I remember going to a little country church in Butler, Tennessee and singing a special, The Wise Man Built His House Upon the Rocks. After I sang my song, the visiting preacher began shouting and getting all red in the face. He went out in the crowd and stuck his finger in various faces and said, "If you don't have Jesus you are going to hell." I remember hoping that the preacher wouldn't come poking me in the nose. I figured I had Jesus, so I wasn't going to hell. But he sure made me wonder.
Throughout my life, I felt like God was somewhere doing something to keep me saved because of that moment when I was a child. I counted myself as a Christian. As I grew older I fell prey to many temptations and failed miserably at living the life Christ expects. I will not bore you with the dirty details; suffice it to say I had reason to doubt that a Holy God would allow me next to anyone in Heaven--let alone His Son. So when I was twenty-eight years old, I came to question my salvation. I looked at my past and believed I couldn't be saved. My life was a mess and I lived for myself--not Jesus. I realized the depth of all Jesus did on the cross, and that through His death and the sacrifice of His blood, He had paid the price for my sins. Today I am certain I am saved.
I realize salvation is because He alone paid the price and changed me from within. It says so in God's Word. I also know because I know. I know who I was before Jesus, and who I became afterwards. Desires changed. My mind changed. My feelings changed. I wanted to be more for others than have others be more for me. I was a selfish, self-centered individual. I didn't feel like that anymore. I wanted to make wrongs, right. I actually cared for others more than myself. All I wanted to do was talk about Jesus. Learn about Jesus. Talk to Jesus. And it's been like that in my life ever since.
"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!" 2 Corinthians 5:17
"The old has gone, the new has come!"
Sometimes I look back on my life and see how He was with me all along--with every step and every stumble--with every rebellious act of disobedience. When I read various scripture passages today, I realize how God was always drawing me to Him. Sometimes I rejected Him and His teachings. Sometimes I sought His face. Often, I grieved Him; I quenched the Spirit on many occasions. But He never let me go. He loved me long before I ever knew Him. He died for me long before I was even a thought in my parents' minds. He had a plan for my life. He sent His only begotten Son, to suffer, to die, to rise again. In suffering He shows me how to live. In His death, He paid the penalty of my sin and showed me how obedience to the Father is not just lip-service. He rose from the grave, conquered death, and made it possible for me to live eternally in His presence because I trust in Him. His grace is indeed sufficient. Glory to His name! selahV
[Butterfly photograph provided by an Oklahoma lover of nature. thanks Rose.]