I've struggled with a lot of decisions the past few months. One major decision was with my dog, Rowdy. Should I amputate his leg or not? Will he be happy with only three legs? Will he be physically able with only three? Well, he's doing okay. It's sad to look at that patch where a leg once grew, but it's amazing to watch how fast that guy can get from one end of the yard to the other. The jury's still out on how happy he is, but I'm sure it is what my son would have done if he'd lived and been faced with the situation. So I take comfort in that.
I've been thinking more and more about my writing. Exactly what is God doing with it? Am I utilizing my time in the best way? I have the talents He has entrusted to me. I have gifts He uses that are most effective through my writing. And I have a behind-the-scenes email prayer ministry that my writing allows me. I love what I do. At times I love it so much, I feel guilty. But to feel guilty about something God has given me is ridiculous!! So I've decided to stop feeling guilty about loving to write.
I recently decided to stop writing with one situation I had. It really made no sense as far as utilizing my writing abilities because the more places I can have my writing viewed, the better off I am personally in getting read. But, sometimes, and rightly so, I make decisions that really have nothing to do with me--but everything to do with what God wants me to do with Him. He has a reason for me to move in this direction. You know me (or if you don't), I think God is up to something with my writing.
Some folks want to know why--they want the scoop on me, so to speak. Others are just concerned about me. Still others are just curious. And then there are others who had no idea I was writing any other place than here at SelahV Today. In fact some folks didn't even know I have several blogs in my sidebar that are mine. I have some reasons that led me to make the decision to leave my other writing situation. But the "why" is in God's hands. I am truly not certain why I did what I did. I'm a firm believer in the Sovereignty of God. I love Corrie ten Boom's quote:
"Every experience God gives us, every person He puts in our lives, is the perfect preparation for the future, that only He can see."
I've loved that quote for years. I have lived seeing the truth in Corrie's wisdom when I reflect upon my life. I don't devalue one single soul who has crossed my path. I believe each and every person is significant to the plan and purpose of my life. I don't know why and don't know how I will affect them. But I know how many have affected me. And a part of who I am is because of their presence in my life. You are a part of my reason for being here today. You. You who read these words. I truly believe that. And I am grateful for you. I am priviledged to have you stop by and read me regularly or occasionally. I'm equally priviledged and honored if you take the time to comment. But even if you don't, know that I think you are significant in God's plan and purpose.
I may struggle with a decision. So might you. But our opportunities are endless when we place our struggles in God's hands and allow Him total control over the consequences. We can truly change the world. My desire is for the better. selahV
[coyrighted, SelahV Today, 2008]
