Vulnerability

It's a very dangerous thing.  To bare one's soul, open one's heart, or share one's thoughts.  To do so tills the ground for anyone to tromp all over the intimacy we once guarded and crush the tender shoots of trust.  Boundaries.  Most often they serve us well.  Otherwise even the closest friend can take advantage of our vulnerability.  Just when we begin to release a piece of ourselves into the care of another, they're apt to treat it carelessly--more so than we would tend to it ourselves.  Erecting walls, invisible or real--may be the only way to live within a world of constant critiques and bias.  It is a peaceful thing to know there is no need for walls, nor ceilings, locks or keys with our Father in heaven.  He knows.  And He loves anyway.  selahV

Comments

[Vicki]

Very thoughtful post, so truthful...and what a relief to know He doesn't reject us, no matter what. But I guess when people have done nothing but reject or handle us carelessly, it's hard to take down those walls and risk vulnerability again. Might be worth it. I don't know.

[selahV]

Vicki, it's lonely without people we can trust. I think the wisest thing is to crack the door to our hearts, and not throw it wide open. Throughout my life I have mostly thrown it wide open and went for broke. And I got broken.

Yet, so often, even when we carefully, and slowly lift the guardrails of our innermost thoughts, I have found some people who like to take a snapshot of a particular phrase we've used and define a belief system, character and personality of all we are as a portfolio to share with the world. It can be hurtful.

However, the risk is worth it when I consider all the loyal friends I have. In the final analysis of it all, I always have the Lord. And I know He is faithful to love me regardless because I am His. selahV