Have you ever felt something greater than fear? You can see the image of the horror before you. You know your adversary. You know exactly what you face. And you hesitate. You argue point for point how irrational it is the feel what you feel in the face of the image. I've been dealing with that for over a week now. I knew where I was not going to go. My fear was not in the inability of God to meet me in my moment of need.
It was in myself. God was reliable. I was not. For days I thought about it. I'd settled it. I was not going to walk on a pathway that was totally unnecessary for me to follow. Then a series of situations pushed open a gate. I heard God's voice behind me. "Fear not, for I am with you."
I knew that. I really did. I don't know why God felt He had to remind me. But He did. I felt like jelly. I didn't feel good at all. I was battling a respiratory bug and an intestinal virus. My back was giving me a really rough time. My left leg was numb from the knee to my thigh. I simply didn't need anything else to deal with at that moment. But God spoke and I followed.
I asked my friends to pray for me. Then I left it with the Lord. Today it is partially over. Today I can tell you that the verse that I am putting to memory is this:
"Fear not, for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My right hand of rightness and justice." Isaiah 41:10
I've written about this verse before. But this is what happened for me today. God kept me in the midst of His hand. I was helped and held up. For some reason God wants to show me this continually. Over and over and over again. He wants to show me that he is strengthening me. That He is holding me. That He is keeping me. I am amazed He cares so very much. I really really am. selahV
[copyrighted, SelahV Today, 2008]
