There have been times in my life when I lacked confidence. When I gave my first speech in 4-H competition at age thirteen. When I applied for jobs. When I became a mother. In fact, there are still times I feel inadequate. I question my abilities. I believe the voice that tells me I am incompetent, that I do not know what I am talking about. I think about what I am doing today and stand amazed that I am able to do it. Who am I that I should--well, whatever--do anything at all? Who am I that anyone should listen to me? To read my words, to trust them?
I sit here writing this and realize everything I say is just words without Christ. I think about my life and what I have accomplished. I find myself wondering about past ministries and people I counseled. And I am reminded by Paul's words to the Corinthians that I have no claim at all to competence--none whatsoever.
"Such confidence as this is ours through Christ before God. Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God." 2 Corinthians 3:4-5
Indeed, my friends, the only confidence we have is in Christ Jesus. We have nothing to measure another man's soul, nothing to determine another man's heart-felt motives. Only Christ knows the good we are doing in His name. Even the evil we see shown by others--the arrogance, the pride-filled rhetoric, the condemning statements--those are not ours to claim some superior knowledge of. All that we do--words or deeds--rest entirely in the merciful, tolerant, forgiving nail-scarred hands of Christ. The final judge. Any competence we show the world with the little light we shed comes from God. Who are we to boast of any greater knowledge of Him? Who are we to mock another as having less knowledge than we? Who are we that God is mindful of us at all? selahV