Deep inside my heart, I know. There is a bubbling excitement that is unexplainable. The shadows of oppression have lifted. The joy of the Lord is fully pulsating throughout my being. Life is exactly as it's been the last 4 years--fraught with trials, filled with struggles, and crowded with obstacles.
Health is deteriorating. Financial pressure is mounting. Life in general has not changed. By all accounts, I should be depressed and weary. The future looks bleak, but I feel so happy I could shout for joy. God is doing something extra-special within me. He gave me a song to sing all day today: "Jesus is the Answer". I sang it as I leisurely shopped in Wal-Mart and carefully purchased food for the month. When the total rang up, I about choked. I'd gone over budget. But that's okay.
Life is so sweet. I feel incredibly content. Nothing seems impossible. I know the simple things I suffer are so small in comparison to others' difficulties, and those of my Lord long ago. I am so blessed to have people praying for me. It's a reality some call foolishness. Yet, I am not ashamed to claim His promises; "...for I know Whom I have believed, and am persuaded that He is able to keep that which I have committed unto Him until that day." 2 Timothy 1:12 selahV