It's easier for me to make moral decisions than those which demand an exchange of money for comfort. I've often sacrificed my health to avoid spending money we need for other things-- housing, food and security.
And then came blurred vision, glare from lamps, headlights and sun. Impaired night vision. Difficulty reading and watching television. Age. Cataracts.
So, I saw my optometrist who's been monitoring my growing cataracts. He referred me to the specialist and surgeon for a cataract consult. Next week begins my journey for a more visually sound life. Folks have told me that it was the best thing they ever did (even though there is some discomfort and days of adjustment).
The doctor gave me 3 choices for lens replacements. One is the basic, Monofocal Lens which helps me see better but I'll still have to wear bi-focal glasses. Another is the Astigmatism-Correcting Monofocal Lens, which is a step better for long distance, but would still need reading glasses. Finally, there is the best of all--the Multifocal Lens chances at freedom from glasses altogether. Each of the better ways come with a higher price tag. The basic is paid for by the insurance. Do I want to invest that much in myself for the joy of no more pressure on my sinuses? Sinus pressure causes me such everyday irritation due to allergy-related issues. It all sounds so good. Do I dip into our meager savings and get the lenses that make my life easier for reading, for crafting, for writing? No more searching for glasses when I get up each morning. No more cleaning the smears and smudges. Oh, me.
I just don't know. When you're on a fixed income, frugality is always on your mind. Luxury is secondary--even when it comes to health and ease. Always at the forefront of decision making is the bottom line.
How easy it is to get off track from necessity to convenience and comfort. How tempting.
Don't we do that with many situations in life? We hear words that appeal for a season. And we find ourselves following a pathway we're sold as right--as best for us, our family, or country.
To believe we can make a difference in someone's life is good, but choices are made personally. I don't know the entire picture for your life. I have limited sight and insight. I can't make your choice for you, nor you for me. We must make choices alone. Often, people would like to make our choices for us--to put us on their pathway. Ultimately, others have their own interests in mind, more than ours.
God tells us how to stay on track with Him. We must be extremely careful where we walk, stand and sit. We need the discernment only He can give us.
Any path we take-- be it conversationally, socially, politically, culturally, morally-- needs to be scrutinized in light of God's Word as a follower of Christ. There are so many people making arguments that meet a majority's acceptance but fail miserably when scrutinized through the lens of God's principles.
I have no idea what I will do at the moment regarding my lenses. It sounds so good to not have to worry with glasses anymore. But I still must weigh the cost--as we all do, with so many things-- our votes, our vocations, our faith.
Whew; you'd think at my age, decisions would be much easier with the choices before me, huh? Surely cataracts don't cause a blurred mind as well as blurred vision. I'm counting on that before next week arrives. selahV