We cannot begin to know the mind of God. We can only know what He shows us through His Word and what we experience through the leadership of His Holy Spirit. I've had my share of questioning, for sure, since I lost my son in 2005. Sometimes it feels like forever ago, other times like yesterday.
A dear minister friend of mine shared something with me last night when I was talking with him about my son's death and the way the world is today. He shared a scripture with me:
"The righteous perisheth, and no man layeth it to heart: and merciful men are taken away, none considering that the righteous is taken away from the evil to come." Isaiah 57:1
Can you comprehend the love the LORD has for you if He takes you home to live with Him instead of allowing you to go through "the evil to come"? Can you imagine the heartache you would have if your child lived with you only to have excruciating heartache "from the evil to come" and you had to watch helplessly without any power to ease your child's pain and heartache?
We cannot know the mind of God in all things. We cannot. But we do know that God is a merciful God. He is a loving, steadfast and all-knowing God. And given that knowledge we have of Him and His character, we can only rest in the fact and evidence that He knows our future so well that He works all things (life, death, health, illness, rejection, and sorrow), for our good. He loves us that much. We can trust Him--even if we do not understand.
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, lean not to thine own understanding, but in all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6