Have you ever found yourself in an abyss of weariness, disappointment, or discouragement? Perhaps it is more like a pothole than a cavernous dark hole. Yet you know, each day, whenever someone's words or actions cross your path, you crumble as surely as chunks of asphalt crumble when a tire runs across a hole in the road. With every bump, the pothole widens and deepens. You know you must do something about it; if you allow this hole to go unattended, it will soon be a canyon.
Potholes and pits are not fun. Sometimes we have no clue what is wrong with us. We can't understand how we find ourselves in such a state. We have everything--a home, a family, friends, a loving God. What IS our problem, anyway? I confess, I do not know what your problem is. I have a suspicion what mine is, most of the time.
Notice, there is something very telling about a pothole: a pothole is not a problem because of what is inside it; but rather, because of what is not inside it. Just as a pothole on a highway needs to be filled to keep it from getting worse, we need to fill our holes of discontent, discouragement, disillusionment and despair. When I find myself in the shadows of sadness and cannot see the sunshine, it is usually because my back is to the "light". It's then I know I must turn around.
My greatest joy comes when I revisit the miracles of hope God has shown me through His Word. I consider how relieved the nation of Israel felt when they crossed the Red Sea. I consider the joy David felt when God forgave him. I consider the joy Peter felt when Jesus met him and told him to feed His sheep. I meditate upon the glory of God's presence in my life through the handiwork of His creation. I marvel that He would do so much for me, a sinner who once was at war with Him and His people. Then I rest. I rest beside the still waters and cry and consider, Why am I cast down? My Father owns the cattle on a thousand hills. This is but a blink in eternity that I am enduring.
We aren't the only ones to be weary, tired, and filled with grief. The disciples were so overcome with the news that Jesus told them at the Last Supper, that they couldn't even watch and pray with Him. Remember what He said when He found them sleeping? “Get up and pray, so that you won’t enter into temptation.” Luke22:46b.
I am tempted every day to focus on me and mine rather than He and His. When I lose focus and take my eyes off Him, I fall prey every time to the folly of circumstance. Meeting God, and praying and talking it all out with Him, does more for me than an afternoon nap, a shopping trip, or complaining to a friend. Knowing that the saints before me fell prey to the abyss at times, reminds me once again that God cares in ways beyond my comprehension.
Are you weary? Are you discouraged? Do you want to run away from life?
May the Most High God flood your soul today and lift you out of the quagmire in which you find yourself. May He give you clear insight and understanding of the grand purpose He has for you…this day. selahV