After months of struggling with several situations, I am finally at peace. I've prayed and searched, grasped, and held on. I let go, rested, then picked up problems and struggled some more. I listened and ignored.
I've cried and I've fallen into an abyss of self-pity and resignation. I've resisted, then yielded, then resisted again. I persevered, endured, then melted like a snowball in a Summer's rain. I never wavered in my faith with God...but did I ever doubt the people in the world around me!
God came upon my spirit and erased the angst. He dispelled the darkness with His light. He restored sight to blinded eyes focused on all the wrong things. I cannot tell you what made it all change. I can only say that my heart suddenly felt lighter. My mind clearer. I love it when the time is up...when God says "Enough!"...when He pushes aside all the rhetoric bouncing around inside my brain and says..."Peace, be still." Waves of discord cease heaving. Winds of friction become breezes of refreshment. It's amazing. So amazing is His grace. So grateful am I to be His child. Oh, to linger upon this mountain for a while. It is so sweet. selahV