Blessed? because I persevere under trial? Abandonment. Abuse. Criticism. Hatred. Threats. Poverty. Discord. Because... once I have "stood the test", I will receive "the crown of life"?
For some, that seems so far away. That "crown of life". That intangible promise of future reward. What about life now?
It's not easy to endure discomfort. Pain. Heartache. Grief. Betrayal. Broken relationships. Yet, somehow we do it. We get through the most unbelieveable difficulties. I know. I've lived through many and I am still here. I've been strengthened by those I have endured. God has given me wisdom and insight through them. I do not envy those with greater patience, strength and seemingly unfailing faith. I know to receive those things one must go through the trials of fire to attain them on this earth. They must persevere.
It seems to me that the more I persevere, the more that comes my way. And sometimes I'm too weak to persevere. I find endurance nigh unto impossible. So how? How do I survive the cords of darkness that seek to strangle the hope in every utterance of praise?
I do not know. It's a mystery to me. But God gives me His strength when I am weakest, and His wisdom when I am witless, and His peace when my emotions take me to the edge of a cliff. Before the abyss of pain swallows me, HE comes. Before the ravaging waves of emotion engulf me, HE comes. Before the threats of uncertainty drive me insane, HE comes.
HE stills my soul.
HE quiets my mind.
HE adds extra power.
HE gives the exact thing I need at the exact moment I cannot breathe another breath, or walk another step, or cry another tear, or utter a word of prayer.
HE brings the person to encourage.
HE highlights His Word and breathes life into my weariness.
I pray HE comes to you now. This very moment. May you know HE is able...that "faithful is HE who has called you, who will also do it." selahV