I tried to learn to drive at seventeen. That's when my husband attempted to teach me to drive his brand new 1965 butter-yellow Tempest convertible. I hated it (not the Tempest, the driving lessons). I could not get the hang of standard shifting. I'd sit on the side of that dirt road in Canton, Maine and "brrrooom" till I finally popped the clutch and the engine died. I wasn't very coordinated. Couldn't master the brain, foot, hand connections. I seemed to be stuck in neutral.
...two years later, we bought a brand new, black on black, 1967 Mustang Fastback with a 390 engine. What a dream car! It was an automatic. Life was good. Driving was simpler. Less to think about. Less effort. Packed with power.
Wouldn't it be nice if life were so easy? Get up in the morning, turn a key and have the power of a 390 engine? To move amid the highways and byways of life with the ease of automation? No entanglements. No worries about popping clutches on hills, holding down the clutch at stop signs? Finding reverse or searching for second gear?
Recently I've found myself stuck in neutral. I don't feel like I'm doing much of anything for Christ. I've been under the weather due to my chronic back pain. But what kind of an excuse is that? Others are in worse shape than I am. It doesn't seem to hinder them.
I'm not all that satisfied with my writing. Haven't been for months. Seems like I should be doing more...something. I'm not sure what. My brain doesn't seem to work all that well anymore. Maybe it's the pain meds that keep my muse imprisoned. I'm not sure of anything but Christ and my end destination. However, I do know I cannot sit forever in neutral waiting for the "end". I have to move. There is nothing worse than sitting in neutral--knowing you have somewhere to go--somewhere to be--something to do--but can't get in gear.
Some of us are stuck because we can't master everything. Some of us are stuck because we give up on one thing. Some of us are stuck because we are waiting on others to take us somewhere. Some of us are stuck because we're afraid to try. Christ has empowered us with His Holy Spirit to keep us moving. He is our automatic transmission. He gives us all we need to drive our lives. He even provides the GPS we need to navigate the byways. So why am I stuck in neutral?
Perhaps I need to turn the key or type a few. selahV