It's not an easy thing to do. The older I get the less I want to look in the mirror. The person staring back at me does not seem to fit the knowledge and understanding of my mind, the depth and breadth of my heart, nor the hope of my youth. Years of trial, struggle and grief have left its marks. Regrets may be the tiny red veins now lacing their way across my nose. Wrinkles reveal evidence of decades filled with mixed emotions: worry, joy, victory, disappointment and sorrow. Gray hair salts the black with time I spent learning from experience, growing through mistakes, and achieving goals. Vision is dimmed by years of seeing what should be done, what could be done, yet, somehow, never realized. When I look at myself in the mirror, I know that the person I stare at is me...I am all I have been but still am yet to be.
The SBC is who she is but is not all that she can be.
She could be more. I truly believe for her to become all she can be, it behooves me to be more than what I am. If you are Southern Baptist, you, also, must be more than you are. We need to pray more for our brethren, ourselves and the lost in this world. We need to pray we do not grow weary in well-doing, but remember the doctrines of faith we first learned. We need to pray that we and our brethren do not fall into temptation. We need others to pray for us. We need to pray for God's power, glory and majesty be made manifest in all we do and say. Then we need to trust God and rest in Him.
We have not, because we ask not. God does not do many miracles because we lack faith. We have often left much of the armor of God lying on the floor of our secret closets. We have walked about in our communities without proper equipment. We have been like the Levite and walked on by the beaten and dying. We have busied ourselves with much conversation and fellowship with one another while ignoring the Savior who dwells within us. Our thoughts are more focused on our thoughts, views and opinions than the thoughts of God the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. We have lost the joy of His salvation and failed to comprehend the expediency of "today is the day of salvation" and "the kingdom of God is at hand." Our plans mean more to us than His plans for us; His presents more than His presence. Woe are we who profess the name of Jesus and trust in horses and chariots instead of the Most High God to empower us for HIS glory and not ours. Do we truly want to give honor and glory to God? Or are we like those who shall cry out "Lord, Lord, but I have labored in your name"?
Perhaps I am too harsh. Perhaps too introspective. Perhaps we just need another program, another task force, another survey, another poll, another emphasis, another system of theology or more reforming. Perhaps another network. Perhaps more giving and sacrificial offerings. Then again...
Perhaps we need to turn from our wicked ways--our bickering and complaining. Perhaps we need to humble ourselves and acknowledge we do not have the answers. Perhaps we need to confess our sin of pride and seek God's face. Perhaps we need to ask Almighty God to forgive us our sin and give Him the honor and glory due HIS name--not ours. Perhaps it is not our name we need to change; we simply need to change our ways. selahV