Ever had times in which you felt like hiding. Felt a bit useless? Powerless? Insignificant? Wasted? I have. I've had moments and even hours in which I wondered what can I do? Who do I think I am in the scheme of things? What difference does another day of 'me' matter? After all, I'm only one person in all of humanity. One voice among millions. I know many people have shared this feeling at times. I know several people who feel this way today. Even the great prophet, Elijah, felt this way one time, and what did he do?
"There he came to a cave and lodged in it; and behold, the word of the Lord came to him, and He said to him, "What are you doing here, Elijah?" 1 Kings 19:9.
We can crawl inside our caves, too. Some folks are limited by health, by finances, by age, by education, by prejudice. We can become so self-absorbed we only see our powerlessness. Just as Elijah felt all alone--threatened by empty rhetoric, we can allow the rhetoric of life to claim power over us and push us into caves of insignificance. Sadly, the reason this happens is because we weigh our significance in light of ourselves rather than the significance of our God.
Though God comes to us in our times of insignificance, we cower in our own inadequacies and mutter, "...I only, am left...". {vs.10) God tells us to "..go out and stand...", yet we remain in our caves. Then after the winds, the quakes, and the fire, we finally realize our Lord is in control. "...and after the fire a still, small voice." 1 Kings 19:11, 12.
And just as God again asks, "What are you doing here, Elijah?", God asks us...why are we cowering and trusting in ourselves? Why are we fearful? God has not changed. His mere passing by, splits mountains, divides the earth and ignites a blaze. Yet, His still, small voice commands attention of the weakest heart, the most fearful spirit, and confused mind.
What am I doing here, Lord? Depending on myself. Forgive me, Lord. Lead me on. selahV
[© SelahV Today, hariette petersen, 2008]